Second

Recently my life has held many stresses. As outlined in my last post, girl problems have been weighing quite heavily on the mind. Even more so recently.  But we'll leave that for another time.  I'll dedicate this post to work and school instead.

My studies over the summer have been quite intense so far.  Ten week courses in higher level mathematics are far more difficult than I would have imagined.  I'm currently taking Ordinary Differential Equations and Vector (Multivariate) Calculus.  Now I've always been reasonably adept in mathematics. I, however, have never really been brilliant in the field.  I have to work my ass off to get good grades in these types of courses and my usual lack of motivation to do, really, anything has been quite problematic in my schooling career.  But it seems the only things that interest me are math related so I have to stick it out and force spurts of extreme work ethic.

With only two to three full class periods between exams I end up having to do quite a bit of work in quite a short period of time.  For example, in Multivariate I have an exam next Wednesday.  Now this is a long break between exams, since we have actually 4 full days of class.  However the homework load, as is to be expected, has doubled. Usually the course requires approximately 100 problems of homework between exams where as this chapter requires 200.  That is contained within about 5-6 sections of study.  Each of these section's homework requires about 3-4 hours of work, so you do the math. (I do enough as is) After that there is the practice test containing 20 problems which are, thankfully, very similar to the material we receive on the exam itself.

Differential Equations is quite different in its method.  Classes usually let out early. We are given, normally, one maybe, if we are in luck, two examples of the types of problems.  Homework for this class is quite slack in comparison to Multivariate.  Maybe 6 to 10 problems per section and about the same amount of sections as are in Multivariate.  These problems do take quite a bit longer in most cases but I would still consider it quite a bit quicker than my other course.  The problem I have in this course is the material itself.  I'm just not as capable when it comes to solving these problems as I am in Multivariate Calculus.  The other course just seems more natural and more familiar.

Now onto my work situation.  That isn't in too good a shape right now considering I don't have a job.  However, I am searching for one and am on the brink of being kicked out of my home for not having one.  This all goes back to my lack of motivation.  I just have a hard time moving my ass really.  It's my own fault for being a lazy procrastinator.  But I wake up in the morning, I go to class, I search for work, and I end up in this situation.

Oh how life would be easier if none of this were required.  Sadly at 22 one has to man up and take responsibility for his own shit.  I have to finally finish school.  I have to finally get another job.  I have to get my shit together in general.  I have a hard time doing it though so I have this internet spot I can use to bitch about how I don't wanna.  God I miss the days where I could justify pouting and just run around throwing eggs at shit and swinging on vines.

Oh well.  Finally time to start growing up.  Once I got the responsibilities under control though, I'm defining what else is entailed in adulthood.

Faustie